This vulnerability of putting yourself out there, selling yourself on paper, hoping you say the right things, wondering if you appeal to their needs, wondering if they’d like you! What if they hate you? What if out of 5 you hear back from 0?! What if all 5 like you?! This is scary! It’s nerve wrecking and vulnerable! It’s worse than anticipating a first date! Or rather after the first date, waiting for that phone call the next hour… the next day…the next week…the next anything!!!
So as you have probably figured out by now, I’ve finally began my process of applying for internships. And now I’m like an anxious puppy waiting for its owner to return home! Instead every time my phone pings notifying me I have a new email…I jump nervously not knowing what to expect. I guess this is the new part of life after school/college. It’s like applying for SCAD four years ago all over again. Rushing home everyday to check my email! It’s such a vulnerable position, I don’t think anything else I’ve experienced is this nerve wrecking. But let me continue sending out my applications…I’ve sent out 3 so far which isn’t a lot to most people…but it took me over 3 hours to do those 3! *wipes sweat off of brow*
Wish me luck (and my nerves)!